I am, I want, I need...but most importantly, I have

I AM....a lover, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a hopeless romantic, a nerd, a giver, a good person, worth your time, allergic to something in this face wash, allergic to other stuff too, silly, girly, a little kid at times, busy, nervous, a chocolate lover, a food lover in general, a mess, stressed, and a people pleaser.
There is more, but I am NOT going to keep going.

I WANT...to decorate my room, to find peace, to work on my relationship with God, to find confidence in myself, to successfully complete college, to get organized, to live a more active lifestyle, to be someone's everything, to be more than just someone's friend or friend with benefits, more for myself, more for my family, to be happy right now, everyone to be happy right now, to make someone very happy one day, to get rid of my fears and inhibitions, to take a risk, someone to take a chance on me (no Abba jokes please), someone who will take the time to find out for themselves.

I NEED...God, my family, my friends, food, shelter, and clothing.

I HAVE...God, my family, friends (all 3 of which I love and love me), food, shelter, clothing, an education, a great job, and much much more.

I am thankful for everything I have. There are many things I want, and maybe they will come, in time. Just what I had on my mind right now.

It's Been a While...

Wow, almost a month since my last post. I have been super busy with school and work. I made a 77 on my first Biochem test. Not so happy about that one. But As on everything else. So, I bought this new, expensive acne face wash, and I not so happy at the fact that I'm allergic to it. I feel groggy and my face is red, itchy, and my eyes are puffy. I hate it.
I just feel exhausted. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Sometimes I just wanna quit. I want to give up on men. I know I won't, but right now, it's hard to find someone that seems to be worth it. I know how I am when I am in a relationship, I am a very giving person. I would give my time, energy, and love to see someone happy. I guess I just want someone to feel the same about me.
Oh well, I am just going to quit looking. I guess that's a way to start, if I'm not looking for it, I can't get disappointed when I don't find it.
Been on a strange musical kick lately. I find myself listening to 90s music recently. Pop and rock from that era. It is nice to listen to some stuff that I grew up with. I just realize how incredibly cheesy it is, but I like it. I am almost tempted to buy the Backstreet Boys new cd. Almost...I will check it out online or something first.
Bulldog Bash this weekend. But I am not going to drink. I made myself a pact to be completely sober for one month. October 19th is the goal. I can do it, it will be hard though with all my friends drinking and having fun at Bulldog Bash this weekend. Maybe I will get a clearer head on my shoulders when I get through with this.
Anyway, that's my update for now. Hopefully I get back into doing this more often...