Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop

So, here I am in Denver. I am having a lot of fun so far. I completed the Masters of Beef Advocacy program and had commencement yesterday. It lasted all day and went really well. I am meeting a lot of people from all over the country. It is nice to meet these people. Ms. Nancy and I went to dinner and I ate buffalo. Something different, but I liked it.
Then the American National CattleWomen had an Ice Cream Social last night. That went well. It was nice to meet cattlewomen from Florida and Georgia and all over.
They also had a Fun Run/Walk this morning before Breakfast.
It is nice to see so many women getting involved in the cattle industry.
Today starts the actual NCBA Summer Conference. Sammy, my boss, is supposed to be here any moment. I haven't been playing hookie by any means, but I get nervous when he is around. He is a very nice guy, but is very intimidating. I hate screwing up around him.
Anyway, I don't really have many meetings to go to today, so I am looking for something to do. As many times as I've come to Denver, I have never come downtown and looked around. I think I will try and do that a little bit today. And maybe some shopping. Maybe. Haha

So, to keep things a little bit more private, we will just refer to the following person as "New Guy." Lame, I know, but I want to keep his identity hidden for now. I don't want gossip and such to go around and people who know me to start talking; assuming things.
Anyway, he is amazing! He is super sweet and sends me messages just about eveyday telling me he hopes I have a good day and that he misses me. I know! It's so sweet to hear those from someone you haven't really ever hung out with. I went to eat with him twice this whole summer and we only knew of each other before that.
It's so weird to have this happen. Like, is this guy for real? You only see guys like this in movies, or fairy tales your mom told you when you were little.
Ok, I consider myself an optimist. Always seeing the good in people and most situations. However, Mom always said that if something seemed too good to be true, it usually is. So, my dilemma is that I can't find a thing wrong with him. He's nice, sweet, polite, funny, very good looking, athletic, articulate, smart, and social.
I feel great hearing from him. I can't wait to see him. We have a date when I see him again. Our summer jobs have kept us from going out and seeing each other, fyi.
But, he calls me, texts me, facebook messages me, etc... I can't seem to stop thinking about him. I feel like a little girl with a huge crush. Haha.
What I wonder is why me, and why now? He has met me, seen me, goes to school with me, but just now decides to talk to me and get to know me. I'm not complaining at all, but why me. He could really have his pick of just about any girl on campus or with him. Girls that are more athletic, prettier, and probably less of a mess than I can be.
I know who am, the person I am. And for once in a long time, I'm worried I'll screw things up and my thoughts will get in the way. I tend to overthink situations (which could explain this long post), but I want to take it slow with this guy. This is the kind of guy you take it easy with, fall for him long and slow. Enjoy every minute of it.
I know I have a lot to offer someone. I have an intense amount of love to give to the right person. I just haven't been on a date in a while, a long while, and I want to make sure I am making good decisions now. I want to make sure that if I fall for someone, he'll be there to catch me. I don't have a lot of trust right now, and maybe that is why I am looking for a fault in this guy, but I'm trying to convince myself to stop thinking and just enjoy it. Just see where it goes. I won't be anything but myself though. All of myself. And hope someone, maybe him, will appreciate it and be able to be happy to be with me. All of me. When I get angry, sad, happy, excited, upset, stressed out, irritated, etc.

And had you asked me a couple months ago, I would have told you that person was Stephen. But now that him and I are no longer together, I realize that I don't think Stephen was that person. He loved when I was happy and laughed at his jokes. But he didn't care to hear about my job, which I loved. He hated when I cried. Not because I was sad, just because it made him uncomfortable. This isn't a bashing session on Stephen, but I know that I wasn't perfect for him either. I couldn't take his sense of humor sometimes. I probably could lighten up a bit, but I didn't. There were beliefs and views we both stood by that neither of us wanted to let go of. And that is fine, and I am sorry I hurt him. It still hurts me sometimes too, but if he has moved on, which he has told me he has, then I don't see a future with him anymore. I was willing to leave it open, because I did love him. I do still care for him intensely, but I can't sit and linger over what he's doing, if he thinks about me, etc. Got to start moving on with my life.

Trying to get back on track with myself. Trying to figure out what it is that I want. Trying to be independent and find myself, my interests. I've been focused on someone else's interests for a long time now, and it is hard for me to start doing things solely for me. Like, I want to start working out, but confused where to start. I want to join a dance class, or go out to the shooting range. I've made a mental list of things I want to do. But I am a little nervous to start these things.
#1: Dance: Join a ballroom dance class.
#2: Shooting: My cousin took me to a shooting range, and I did pretty well. I'd like to try it again.
#3: Find a fitness program that is fun!
#4: Get motivated! I need to find what motivates me. That is really a big concern for me. There is a lot I want to try and do, but few things I have a real great pssion for (at least when it comes to hobbies and activities). I am passionate about nutrition, passionate about cooking, passionate about school, things like that, but if cooking were a hobby, I would have food for an eternity (and I just don't have that kind of money to be spending on groceries).

Please, post your thoughts on things you think I should try. I need ideas. I want adventure. I want excitement!

Later Days!