Last Day

It is the last day yesterday with the internship, and the day went by fairly fast. I spent the morning traveling all over Jackson to drop off information to grocery stores. I move up to Starkville tomorrow. Should be fun!

I was thinking just a moment ago, how detached we get from each other. Texts, Facebook Chats, AIM, and Instant Messengers. We use them regularly to talk to people, and it is so emotionless. I mean, I text a lot, no doubt. But I feel there are certain things I can text someone, but not say to them in person. I know it probably sounds weird, but it's true. I can text someone something so intimate, so personal, but not say it to their face. For fear of their facial reaction. Because you can't see what they really think in a text. Facial expressions give everything away. I could be laughing and joking with someone, but truly be upset by what they were saying. Just so they wouldn't know how I feel. I guess, I'm saying that it's easy to hide behind these messages. Especially when you have something important or devastating to tell them. That way you can opt out from seeing the sadness or shock or anger in their face. And no matter how many times they curse you or say they hate you, it never hurts as bad as if it were in person. Because when you are face-to-face, you can't hide. Everything gives you away, the way you speak, the way you stand (or sit), the way your face is, the look in your eyes.

Even on the telephone you have a little bit of you hidden. They can hear the tone of your voice, but they can't see you. Body language gives everything away. And I get why people who break up with others over the phone, in a note, or over a text are cowards. They don't give the other person the decency to talk to them face to face. And I mean, I've done that before, and I was a coward for it, but I couldn't do that to Stephen. He deserved better than that. Even though it was excrutiating in person, it was the least I could do.

Trying to cram all the music I can think of onto my mp3 player so I am prepared for move in and can be satisfied with my collection for a while. I have 8 GB of music available, and so far, I've only used half. Which is equivalent to about 700 songs. So, I need suggestions.