I Don't Know

I just erased perhaps the longest blog post I'd ever taken the time to sit down and think about. It was about a break up. Realizing that I had probably invested too much time in it, I just highlighted and deleted for the simple fact that I just don't think anyone in their right mind would have wanted to read that.
Plus, it's immature to do that. Trash talk the person that dumped you. Well, in my defense, I didn't really 'trash talk' him, it was just filled with a lot of sarcastic remarks and commentaries on what actually happened. I would never call someone I cared about names and whatnot.
I was just blindsided is all, wasn't expecting it. And I guess that's the best way to go out, but still, not the most fun.
What I am most curious about, is how long would he have waited to say something? Because I brought up the fact that things felt different, and then, minutes later, bam!
So, it really was surprising.
Still going through a miniatuer rollercoaster of emotions: sadness to frustration to anger back to sadness.
I think the only truth that came out though was the fact that he didn't wait until later to tell me and wasted my time. Having said that, he still waited to tell me in the first place, in turn, wasting my time anyway. But whatever.
I get it. I know what he's trying to do, and I can respect how he feels, but it's upsetting because you go through your head everything he said and did just days ago, and wonder how feelings can change so suddenly.
But, I guess you just pick yourself up, and move on.
The worst things to happen after a break-up are the awkward situations with their friends, and the I-Told-You-So people. So, if you read this and are one of those people, spare me. I don't want to hear it.
Nothing more to really say, I guess.