I AM....a lover, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a hopeless romantic, a nerd, a giver, a good person, worth your time, allergic to something in this face wash, allergic to other stuff too, silly, girly, a little kid at times, busy, nervous, a chocolate lover, a food lover in general, a mess, stressed, and a people pleaser.
There is more, but I am NOT going to keep going.
I WANT...to decorate my room, to find peace, to work on my relationship with God, to find confidence in myself, to successfully complete college, to get organized, to live a more active lifestyle, to be someone's everything, to be more than just someone's friend or friend with benefits, more for myself, more for my family, to be happy right now, everyone to be happy right now, to make someone very happy one day, to get rid of my fears and inhibitions, to take a risk, someone to take a chance on me (no Abba jokes please), someone who will take the time to find out for themselves.
I NEED...God, my family, my friends, food, shelter, and clothing.
I HAVE...God, my family, friends (all 3 of which I love and love me), food, shelter, clothing, an education, a great job, and much much more.
I am thankful for everything I have. There are many things I want, and maybe they will come, in time. Just what I had on my mind right now.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
It's Been a While...
Wow, almost a month since my last post. I have been super busy with school and work. I made a 77 on my first Biochem test. Not so happy about that one. But As on everything else. So, I bought this new, expensive acne face wash, and I not so happy at the fact that I'm allergic to it. I feel groggy and my face is red, itchy, and my eyes are puffy. I hate it.
I just feel exhausted. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Sometimes I just wanna quit. I want to give up on men. I know I won't, but right now, it's hard to find someone that seems to be worth it. I know how I am when I am in a relationship, I am a very giving person. I would give my time, energy, and love to see someone happy. I guess I just want someone to feel the same about me.
Oh well, I am just going to quit looking. I guess that's a way to start, if I'm not looking for it, I can't get disappointed when I don't find it.
Been on a strange musical kick lately. I find myself listening to 90s music recently. Pop and rock from that era. It is nice to listen to some stuff that I grew up with. I just realize how incredibly cheesy it is, but I like it. I am almost tempted to buy the Backstreet Boys new cd. Almost...I will check it out online or something first.
Bulldog Bash this weekend. But I am not going to drink. I made myself a pact to be completely sober for one month. October 19th is the goal. I can do it, it will be hard though with all my friends drinking and having fun at Bulldog Bash this weekend. Maybe I will get a clearer head on my shoulders when I get through with this.
Anyway, that's my update for now. Hopefully I get back into doing this more often...
I just feel exhausted. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Sometimes I just wanna quit. I want to give up on men. I know I won't, but right now, it's hard to find someone that seems to be worth it. I know how I am when I am in a relationship, I am a very giving person. I would give my time, energy, and love to see someone happy. I guess I just want someone to feel the same about me.
Oh well, I am just going to quit looking. I guess that's a way to start, if I'm not looking for it, I can't get disappointed when I don't find it.
Been on a strange musical kick lately. I find myself listening to 90s music recently. Pop and rock from that era. It is nice to listen to some stuff that I grew up with. I just realize how incredibly cheesy it is, but I like it. I am almost tempted to buy the Backstreet Boys new cd. Almost...I will check it out online or something first.
Bulldog Bash this weekend. But I am not going to drink. I made myself a pact to be completely sober for one month. October 19th is the goal. I can do it, it will be hard though with all my friends drinking and having fun at Bulldog Bash this weekend. Maybe I will get a clearer head on my shoulders when I get through with this.
Anyway, that's my update for now. Hopefully I get back into doing this more often...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Again!? Really...
So, I am on duty this weekend. I have a lot to get done this weekend, but I'm not in a rush. I can't go anywhere. So, no hurry.
I have a paper to write on why I chose Nutrition as my major. I know why I did, but it's hard to complete a whole paper with the story behind it. I was in culinary arts, loved the nutrition chapter, always liked to help people, figured why not?!
I mean I do have a passion for it. I love what I'm learning and how it can be applicable to my everyday life. That's great, but I am just having a hard time writing a paper on it.
So, I rediscovered the greatness that is 90s Pop Groups/Artists...NSYNC, BSB, Otown, Spice Girls, Mariah Carey, Christina Aguilera, and even though she's not in this category of "pop", I have been listening to some older Shania Twain.
I love it. It may be cheesy and the lyrics are simple, some probably don't even make sense, but it makes me smile. I feel like a kid again, but it also makes me feel a bit old, too. It was a decade ago that this stuff came out. Goodness.
Speaking of getting older, another one of my friends got engaged this weekend. Now, I'm not going to rush off and get married because my friends are doing it, that's stupid and you shouldn't base your life off of someone else's, but come on. You can't help but feel a little pressure. Some are getting married because of certain circumstances i.e. pregnancy (and I'm not saying anything bad about it, do what you gotta do), but then others are getting married and starting their lives.
You know, when people asked where I saw myself in 5 years (age 24 or 25, I'm closer to 20 now), I would say in a career and either married or in a deep committed relationship. So, let's analyze this a bit. If I keep this goal, I would graduate next year and I would be 21. Would enter a Dietetic Internship lasting about a year, taking the RD Exam and become a Registered Dietitian by 22. That means, 2 to 3 years to get a job(that is, if I don't go back for my Master's), find Mr. Right, and possibly get married. I mean, it's not unheard of. And I don't necessarily have to follow this plan. But, I don't want to be single at 30. I want to have a family by then, or at least starting one. Nothing against those who do wait until 30, I just don't want it for myself.
I know it seems silly to have plans like this, and they aren't rigid deadlines, but I do want these things in my life.
No worries right now though, I'm not going to go out and search for that certain someone right away. I guess it's a slight fear of mine that it won't happen, that's why I have these ideas or goals.
But, congratulations to those that are getting or have already gotten married. Best wishes!
I have a paper to write on why I chose Nutrition as my major. I know why I did, but it's hard to complete a whole paper with the story behind it. I was in culinary arts, loved the nutrition chapter, always liked to help people, figured why not?!
I mean I do have a passion for it. I love what I'm learning and how it can be applicable to my everyday life. That's great, but I am just having a hard time writing a paper on it.
So, I rediscovered the greatness that is 90s Pop Groups/Artists...NSYNC, BSB, Otown, Spice Girls, Mariah Carey, Christina Aguilera, and even though she's not in this category of "pop", I have been listening to some older Shania Twain.
I love it. It may be cheesy and the lyrics are simple, some probably don't even make sense, but it makes me smile. I feel like a kid again, but it also makes me feel a bit old, too. It was a decade ago that this stuff came out. Goodness.
Speaking of getting older, another one of my friends got engaged this weekend. Now, I'm not going to rush off and get married because my friends are doing it, that's stupid and you shouldn't base your life off of someone else's, but come on. You can't help but feel a little pressure. Some are getting married because of certain circumstances i.e. pregnancy (and I'm not saying anything bad about it, do what you gotta do), but then others are getting married and starting their lives.
You know, when people asked where I saw myself in 5 years (age 24 or 25, I'm closer to 20 now), I would say in a career and either married or in a deep committed relationship. So, let's analyze this a bit. If I keep this goal, I would graduate next year and I would be 21. Would enter a Dietetic Internship lasting about a year, taking the RD Exam and become a Registered Dietitian by 22. That means, 2 to 3 years to get a job(that is, if I don't go back for my Master's), find Mr. Right, and possibly get married. I mean, it's not unheard of. And I don't necessarily have to follow this plan. But, I don't want to be single at 30. I want to have a family by then, or at least starting one. Nothing against those who do wait until 30, I just don't want it for myself.
I know it seems silly to have plans like this, and they aren't rigid deadlines, but I do want these things in my life.
No worries right now though, I'm not going to go out and search for that certain someone right away. I guess it's a slight fear of mine that it won't happen, that's why I have these ideas or goals.
But, congratulations to those that are getting or have already gotten married. Best wishes!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
What I Want
I wanted you. But, it wasn't good enough. I wanted to be that person in your life that you could talk to about anything, the person you wanted just as much. But I know I can't make you have the same feelings for me. So, why try to change your mind.
I just wanted someone to feel the same way I felt about them. Like I said, I have a lot of love to give. To a person who is willing to reciprocate that love back.
Her Prince Charming was a facade... a hoax. What she thought was too good to be true, actually was, and for that, she is completely heartbroken.
I just wanted someone to feel the same way I felt about them. Like I said, I have a lot of love to give. To a person who is willing to reciprocate that love back.
Her Prince Charming was a facade... a hoax. What she thought was too good to be true, actually was, and for that, she is completely heartbroken.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
I Don't Know
I just erased perhaps the longest blog post I'd ever taken the time to sit down and think about. It was about a break up. Realizing that I had probably invested too much time in it, I just highlighted and deleted for the simple fact that I just don't think anyone in their right mind would have wanted to read that.
Plus, it's immature to do that. Trash talk the person that dumped you. Well, in my defense, I didn't really 'trash talk' him, it was just filled with a lot of sarcastic remarks and commentaries on what actually happened. I would never call someone I cared about names and whatnot.
I was just blindsided is all, wasn't expecting it. And I guess that's the best way to go out, but still, not the most fun.
What I am most curious about, is how long would he have waited to say something? Because I brought up the fact that things felt different, and then, minutes later, bam!
So, it really was surprising.
Still going through a miniatuer rollercoaster of emotions: sadness to frustration to anger back to sadness.
I think the only truth that came out though was the fact that he didn't wait until later to tell me and wasted my time. Having said that, he still waited to tell me in the first place, in turn, wasting my time anyway. But whatever.
I get it. I know what he's trying to do, and I can respect how he feels, but it's upsetting because you go through your head everything he said and did just days ago, and wonder how feelings can change so suddenly.
But, I guess you just pick yourself up, and move on.
The worst things to happen after a break-up are the awkward situations with their friends, and the I-Told-You-So people. So, if you read this and are one of those people, spare me. I don't want to hear it.
Nothing more to really say, I guess.
Plus, it's immature to do that. Trash talk the person that dumped you. Well, in my defense, I didn't really 'trash talk' him, it was just filled with a lot of sarcastic remarks and commentaries on what actually happened. I would never call someone I cared about names and whatnot.
I was just blindsided is all, wasn't expecting it. And I guess that's the best way to go out, but still, not the most fun.
What I am most curious about, is how long would he have waited to say something? Because I brought up the fact that things felt different, and then, minutes later, bam!
So, it really was surprising.
Still going through a miniatuer rollercoaster of emotions: sadness to frustration to anger back to sadness.
I think the only truth that came out though was the fact that he didn't wait until later to tell me and wasted my time. Having said that, he still waited to tell me in the first place, in turn, wasting my time anyway. But whatever.
I get it. I know what he's trying to do, and I can respect how he feels, but it's upsetting because you go through your head everything he said and did just days ago, and wonder how feelings can change so suddenly.
But, I guess you just pick yourself up, and move on.
The worst things to happen after a break-up are the awkward situations with their friends, and the I-Told-You-So people. So, if you read this and are one of those people, spare me. I don't want to hear it.
Nothing more to really say, I guess.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Ready or Not...
And I'm not. Sadly. Classes begin tomorrow. I already feel like I'm behind. Just with desk stuff and the fact that I'm running out of money, my room is a mess, and I haven't gotten my RIFs out yet. Poop. I need to get my shit together.
New favorite song: Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds
Dunno, it's catchy and I like it. I got my nails done the other day, it was nice to do something for myself. I wanted to do something wild and crazy, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. However, it is supposed to rain tomorrow, great chance to have a little fun. I love the rain. Just standing out there and letting it fall. I like it best in the summer, it's just too cold in the winter. Plus, pneumonia is no fun.
So, my sister is a ZTA and I'm so happy for her! She really likes her sorority, I hope she enjoys her time in college. I'm excited for her.
So, I've pretty much fallen for Jamie. It's official. Haha. Even thinking about him makes me smile. He seems like he actually cares.
So, I'm tired. Maybe a longer post next time.
New favorite song: Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds
Dunno, it's catchy and I like it. I got my nails done the other day, it was nice to do something for myself. I wanted to do something wild and crazy, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. However, it is supposed to rain tomorrow, great chance to have a little fun. I love the rain. Just standing out there and letting it fall. I like it best in the summer, it's just too cold in the winter. Plus, pneumonia is no fun.
So, my sister is a ZTA and I'm so happy for her! She really likes her sorority, I hope she enjoys her time in college. I'm excited for her.
So, I've pretty much fallen for Jamie. It's official. Haha. Even thinking about him makes me smile. He seems like he actually cares.
So, I'm tired. Maybe a longer post next time.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Busy-Ness
Goodness, I have been so busy today. I like meeting my new IAs though. I love also meeting my new residents. I learn something new about them everyday. And they are so diverse. I like that. They all come from different backgrounds and different lifestyles, and to see them come together and live together is nice to see. I hope I can make friends with a lot of my residents. I always have the same goal every year as an RA, and that is to make an impact in someone's life this year. Whether it be help them or just be there as a friend, I want to make someone's stay here even better than they expected. I know Hull is a little rundown, but it is a great place to live. I like it a lot better than where I lived last year.
The bell tower is something to get used to, but I think it might be a good thing. I might need a 7 am wake-up call every morning to keep me from being lazy. Haha.
Nothing more really to say right now. Other than I am happy with Jamie right now. Things are going well, I hope. As far as I know, they are. Haha. I just wish maybe he'd open up to me more about how he's feeling. But he's a guy and I understand that. And I'm a girl and I like to talk. So, no big.
That's really all I got. Later.
The bell tower is something to get used to, but I think it might be a good thing. I might need a 7 am wake-up call every morning to keep me from being lazy. Haha.
Nothing more really to say right now. Other than I am happy with Jamie right now. Things are going well, I hope. As far as I know, they are. Haha. I just wish maybe he'd open up to me more about how he's feeling. But he's a guy and I understand that. And I'm a girl and I like to talk. So, no big.
That's really all I got. Later.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Mmmm....Coffee
So, I have just discovered Coffee. I have never been a coffee drinker, I never liked the taste. It is amazing what two spoonfuls of sugar and some milk will do. I have to stay awake until 4 am working the desk. It is currently 2:35 am. I think I'm all set. :) Thank you Jen Kay.
However, I am stressing a bit. I only have a handful of workers to staff the desk. The desk needs to be staffed 24/7. This isn't cutting it. I need to complete my desk schedule for this week and the semester. It sucks that I don't have enough people to work. Like tomorrow, I have an open shift and I would step up and take it, but I am on duty as an RA. I can't be at the desk when I'm on duty. It's just not happening. So, I need someone to cover it. Desperately. Stress has consumed me, officially.
Song that is stuck in my head: Jordin Sparks-Battlefield. I hate that she had to rip off Pat Benetar.
Which brings me to today's rant. R&B artists and rappers need to stop sampling other artist's music. Right, it's the best form of flattery, but COME ON! Get your own stuff. I'm tired of listening on the radio and thinking I'm hearing one song, and then some artist jumps in with his/her stupid lyrics. Surely there are combinations of beats and rhythms that you can come up with.
So, I just finished watching The Ugly Truth. I liked it a lot. It was obviously transparent as far as the plot goes, but the comedy was good. Plus, Gerard Butler is a good-looking actor. He has a good voice, too. He was great as the phantom in Phantom of the Opera. And then there is 300, which was a whole new reason to love him.
I think a struggle I will face this year as an RA is being understanding and patient. I hit it off great with my residents that moved in today, but I already get a letter under my door saying to fix something ASAP. Like you're barking an order at me. I may be reading too much into it, but seriously, I HATE attitude. I am here to help my residents, I am here as a resource and as a friend. But I also have to enforce rules and policy, and when people don't like that, they get attitudes. I don't do well with attitudes. I've never been in a fight or anything like that thankfully, but I have been in confrontations before, and i hate them. I'm a nice person, it just sucks that people can be so demanding and inconsiderate of others.
Love: So, my love life is going well right about now. I am happy. Just coasting along. For the first time, I don't think I'm going to get all worked up and overthink things. I mean, I'll try not to. But he's such a chill guy, and I know me. Used to constantly seeing that someone and constant reassurance and attention. But I don't want to be that girlfriend. She sounds so needy. And I just want to feel confident and like I don't need anyone. Not to be an extreme feminist here, but I shouldn't NEED anyone. I should WANT them. And I know I want him right now. I just don't want to get to the point where I rely on him and actually feel like I need him around, like I did in past relationships. Are you following?
And a part of that occasional insecurity, comes a little jealousy, for lack of a better word. He is a great guy, and I know he has a lot of friends. Some being female. Which will get to me a little. Nothing to where I don't trust him. I mean, as much as I can trust right now, I do trust him. But, I try to reassure myself. Talk myself out of thinking that way. Like say "Who is he with now?" "Who is he seeing constantly?" and "Who does he seem to want to be with all the time?" and when I answer all those as me, I can renew my mind and move on. So, it doesn't last long, and I hope I can get rid of it altogether. Plus, I have male friends. Which gives me no right to have a problem with him having female friends and I get that.
I also feel some of my quirks and weirdness coming out. Haha. I try to mask it, but I can't. I'm a bit clumsy, say weird things, and make weird noises (apparently). I just get a little nervous everytime I do something stupid. "What's he thinking?"
Wow. I do think. WAY TOO MUCH. I think it's the coffee right now. But anyway, I'm still at the phase where I really watch what I do and say and I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I'm not really hiding who I am, just letting the crazy out in little doses. Haha. But I feel if I get too comfortable, a relationship gets dull. It loses a bit of passion, curiosity, and mystery. And it is way too early to even get comfortable like that. I mean, I bought this 500 date ideas book. Pretty desperate and pathetic some think, but I think of it as a resource. I'm not the most creative mind on the planet and sometimes a date "off the beaten path" might be an excellent way to get to know someone or discover a different part of them.
But back to what I was saying originally (way off topic there). I just want to take it easy. See where it goes. I'm falling. I didn't expect to, but I am and I am happy right now. He makes me happy. And I hope he's happy spending time with me.
However, I am stressing a bit. I only have a handful of workers to staff the desk. The desk needs to be staffed 24/7. This isn't cutting it. I need to complete my desk schedule for this week and the semester. It sucks that I don't have enough people to work. Like tomorrow, I have an open shift and I would step up and take it, but I am on duty as an RA. I can't be at the desk when I'm on duty. It's just not happening. So, I need someone to cover it. Desperately. Stress has consumed me, officially.
Song that is stuck in my head: Jordin Sparks-Battlefield. I hate that she had to rip off Pat Benetar.
Which brings me to today's rant. R&B artists and rappers need to stop sampling other artist's music. Right, it's the best form of flattery, but COME ON! Get your own stuff. I'm tired of listening on the radio and thinking I'm hearing one song, and then some artist jumps in with his/her stupid lyrics. Surely there are combinations of beats and rhythms that you can come up with.
So, I just finished watching The Ugly Truth. I liked it a lot. It was obviously transparent as far as the plot goes, but the comedy was good. Plus, Gerard Butler is a good-looking actor. He has a good voice, too. He was great as the phantom in Phantom of the Opera. And then there is 300, which was a whole new reason to love him.
I think a struggle I will face this year as an RA is being understanding and patient. I hit it off great with my residents that moved in today, but I already get a letter under my door saying to fix something ASAP. Like you're barking an order at me. I may be reading too much into it, but seriously, I HATE attitude. I am here to help my residents, I am here as a resource and as a friend. But I also have to enforce rules and policy, and when people don't like that, they get attitudes. I don't do well with attitudes. I've never been in a fight or anything like that thankfully, but I have been in confrontations before, and i hate them. I'm a nice person, it just sucks that people can be so demanding and inconsiderate of others.
Love: So, my love life is going well right about now. I am happy. Just coasting along. For the first time, I don't think I'm going to get all worked up and overthink things. I mean, I'll try not to. But he's such a chill guy, and I know me. Used to constantly seeing that someone and constant reassurance and attention. But I don't want to be that girlfriend. She sounds so needy. And I just want to feel confident and like I don't need anyone. Not to be an extreme feminist here, but I shouldn't NEED anyone. I should WANT them. And I know I want him right now. I just don't want to get to the point where I rely on him and actually feel like I need him around, like I did in past relationships. Are you following?
And a part of that occasional insecurity, comes a little jealousy, for lack of a better word. He is a great guy, and I know he has a lot of friends. Some being female. Which will get to me a little. Nothing to where I don't trust him. I mean, as much as I can trust right now, I do trust him. But, I try to reassure myself. Talk myself out of thinking that way. Like say "Who is he with now?" "Who is he seeing constantly?" and "Who does he seem to want to be with all the time?" and when I answer all those as me, I can renew my mind and move on. So, it doesn't last long, and I hope I can get rid of it altogether. Plus, I have male friends. Which gives me no right to have a problem with him having female friends and I get that.
I also feel some of my quirks and weirdness coming out. Haha. I try to mask it, but I can't. I'm a bit clumsy, say weird things, and make weird noises (apparently). I just get a little nervous everytime I do something stupid. "What's he thinking?"
Wow. I do think. WAY TOO MUCH. I think it's the coffee right now. But anyway, I'm still at the phase where I really watch what I do and say and I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I'm not really hiding who I am, just letting the crazy out in little doses. Haha. But I feel if I get too comfortable, a relationship gets dull. It loses a bit of passion, curiosity, and mystery. And it is way too early to even get comfortable like that. I mean, I bought this 500 date ideas book. Pretty desperate and pathetic some think, but I think of it as a resource. I'm not the most creative mind on the planet and sometimes a date "off the beaten path" might be an excellent way to get to know someone or discover a different part of them.
But back to what I was saying originally (way off topic there). I just want to take it easy. See where it goes. I'm falling. I didn't expect to, but I am and I am happy right now. He makes me happy. And I hope he's happy spending time with me.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Good Grief Charlie Brown
So, this week has been so hectic. I had my first SRA meeting. That was long. There is a lot to this position that I didn't realize; I am ready for it though. I sat down with my RAs and explained the desk to them, but I get to pick my IAs soon. It'll be like the NFL Draft haha. I do like my job and I have a lot of ideas for programming and whatnot, but I don't want to get overloaded or get behind.
So, as much as I want to go on and on about RA stuff, I have something else on my mind right now. I really just can't help but fall for this new guy. I guess he isn't very new anymore, but it's only been a week and I feel like I've been with him forever. But I can already feel it getting dry. Not that it's him, or me, it's just we're both tired and running out of stuff to do/talk about. I think we might be spending a little too much time together. I mean, I see him during the day for training, and then we hang out most evenings. We're just running out of ideas. I'm just running out of ideas. I care for him. I do. But I don't know if I let myself get to where I wanted.
I know that's completely vague and complex, but I wanted to get to a place where I was completely 100% comfortable with myself. Confident in myself. But I already feel myself looking to him for that reassurance and I don't want to do that. I shouldn't do that, and he shouldn't have to reassure me about who I am and what I have to offer. I know I offer good things to a relationship, but sometimes it boggles me why he wants to be with me.
He's great. He does everything right, but I can't seem to be satisfied. Mostly it's dissatisfaction with myself. I am always overthinking and analyzing everything he does. "What does that mean?" or "What did he mean by that?"
And I psych myself into thinking that he doesn't care when I really think he does. But it also goes back to a trust issue too. Even though I broke up with Stephen, I still don't know if I should trust him 100%. I'm scared to show him the real me. He already sees how I am when I'm happy, and pretty chill. But what is he going to do when things go wrong and I'm no longer keeping his attention?
One of my biggest fears when I get to dating or showing interest in a guy, is that when he finds one or two things he doesn't like, he runs for the hills. It's shallow, but it happens. And I don't want it to happen to me. I know I don't have a perfect body, I'm clumsy, I'm loud, sometimes I say things before I think, and I have somewhat of a short fuse. All of which, are faults of mine.
Sorry this blog has become more of a diary, but it was just on my mind. I want to take it slow, but I feel like I can't control it. It's taking off. And a part of me wants it to, throw my inhibitions to the wind and dive in. But, I am torn.
So, as much as I want to go on and on about RA stuff, I have something else on my mind right now. I really just can't help but fall for this new guy. I guess he isn't very new anymore, but it's only been a week and I feel like I've been with him forever. But I can already feel it getting dry. Not that it's him, or me, it's just we're both tired and running out of stuff to do/talk about. I think we might be spending a little too much time together. I mean, I see him during the day for training, and then we hang out most evenings. We're just running out of ideas. I'm just running out of ideas. I care for him. I do. But I don't know if I let myself get to where I wanted.
I know that's completely vague and complex, but I wanted to get to a place where I was completely 100% comfortable with myself. Confident in myself. But I already feel myself looking to him for that reassurance and I don't want to do that. I shouldn't do that, and he shouldn't have to reassure me about who I am and what I have to offer. I know I offer good things to a relationship, but sometimes it boggles me why he wants to be with me.
He's great. He does everything right, but I can't seem to be satisfied. Mostly it's dissatisfaction with myself. I am always overthinking and analyzing everything he does. "What does that mean?" or "What did he mean by that?"
And I psych myself into thinking that he doesn't care when I really think he does. But it also goes back to a trust issue too. Even though I broke up with Stephen, I still don't know if I should trust him 100%. I'm scared to show him the real me. He already sees how I am when I'm happy, and pretty chill. But what is he going to do when things go wrong and I'm no longer keeping his attention?
One of my biggest fears when I get to dating or showing interest in a guy, is that when he finds one or two things he doesn't like, he runs for the hills. It's shallow, but it happens. And I don't want it to happen to me. I know I don't have a perfect body, I'm clumsy, I'm loud, sometimes I say things before I think, and I have somewhat of a short fuse. All of which, are faults of mine.
Sorry this blog has become more of a diary, but it was just on my mind. I want to take it slow, but I feel like I can't control it. It's taking off. And a part of me wants it to, throw my inhibitions to the wind and dive in. But, I am torn.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Updates from Training
Goodness! This week has been busy. RA Training has been a lot of fun though. My staff is pretty awesome. They are a lot of fun! We did sprinkler and extinguisher training today, so it was really early and really cold. Haha. Lots of fun games, movies, and sessions.
I am so happy being around Jamie. He is really nice and sweet and is always trying to make me smile. I like that about him. I'm starting to care a lot about him. Not just from a romantic standpoint, but as a person; as a friend. I feel like I could see myself with him in a relationship, but if I am wrong, and it all goes to shit, I really just want to be his friend, if nothing else.
I don't really have a lot of time, but this RA Training has been better than last year, for sure. However, I wish they would serve us better food. The Perry is getting old.
I am so happy being around Jamie. He is really nice and sweet and is always trying to make me smile. I like that about him. I'm starting to care a lot about him. Not just from a romantic standpoint, but as a person; as a friend. I feel like I could see myself with him in a relationship, but if I am wrong, and it all goes to shit, I really just want to be his friend, if nothing else.
I don't really have a lot of time, but this RA Training has been better than last year, for sure. However, I wish they would serve us better food. The Perry is getting old.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Last Day
It is the last day yesterday with the internship, and the day went by fairly fast. I spent the morning traveling all over Jackson to drop off information to grocery stores. I move up to Starkville tomorrow. Should be fun!
I was thinking just a moment ago, how detached we get from each other. Texts, Facebook Chats, AIM, and Instant Messengers. We use them regularly to talk to people, and it is so emotionless. I mean, I text a lot, no doubt. But I feel there are certain things I can text someone, but not say to them in person. I know it probably sounds weird, but it's true. I can text someone something so intimate, so personal, but not say it to their face. For fear of their facial reaction. Because you can't see what they really think in a text. Facial expressions give everything away. I could be laughing and joking with someone, but truly be upset by what they were saying. Just so they wouldn't know how I feel. I guess, I'm saying that it's easy to hide behind these messages. Especially when you have something important or devastating to tell them. That way you can opt out from seeing the sadness or shock or anger in their face. And no matter how many times they curse you or say they hate you, it never hurts as bad as if it were in person. Because when you are face-to-face, you can't hide. Everything gives you away, the way you speak, the way you stand (or sit), the way your face is, the look in your eyes.
Even on the telephone you have a little bit of you hidden. They can hear the tone of your voice, but they can't see you. Body language gives everything away. And I get why people who break up with others over the phone, in a note, or over a text are cowards. They don't give the other person the decency to talk to them face to face. And I mean, I've done that before, and I was a coward for it, but I couldn't do that to Stephen. He deserved better than that. Even though it was excrutiating in person, it was the least I could do.
Trying to cram all the music I can think of onto my mp3 player so I am prepared for move in and can be satisfied with my collection for a while. I have 8 GB of music available, and so far, I've only used half. Which is equivalent to about 700 songs. So, I need suggestions.
I was thinking just a moment ago, how detached we get from each other. Texts, Facebook Chats, AIM, and Instant Messengers. We use them regularly to talk to people, and it is so emotionless. I mean, I text a lot, no doubt. But I feel there are certain things I can text someone, but not say to them in person. I know it probably sounds weird, but it's true. I can text someone something so intimate, so personal, but not say it to their face. For fear of their facial reaction. Because you can't see what they really think in a text. Facial expressions give everything away. I could be laughing and joking with someone, but truly be upset by what they were saying. Just so they wouldn't know how I feel. I guess, I'm saying that it's easy to hide behind these messages. Especially when you have something important or devastating to tell them. That way you can opt out from seeing the sadness or shock or anger in their face. And no matter how many times they curse you or say they hate you, it never hurts as bad as if it were in person. Because when you are face-to-face, you can't hide. Everything gives you away, the way you speak, the way you stand (or sit), the way your face is, the look in your eyes.
Even on the telephone you have a little bit of you hidden. They can hear the tone of your voice, but they can't see you. Body language gives everything away. And I get why people who break up with others over the phone, in a note, or over a text are cowards. They don't give the other person the decency to talk to them face to face. And I mean, I've done that before, and I was a coward for it, but I couldn't do that to Stephen. He deserved better than that. Even though it was excrutiating in person, it was the least I could do.
Trying to cram all the music I can think of onto my mp3 player so I am prepared for move in and can be satisfied with my collection for a while. I have 8 GB of music available, and so far, I've only used half. Which is equivalent to about 700 songs. So, I need suggestions.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
I Believe
Famous quote from Crash Davis in the movie Bull Durham that I like...
"Well, I believe in the soul, the c***, the p****, the small of a woman's back, the hanging curve ball, high fiber, good scotch, that the novels of Susan Sontag are self-indulgent, overrated crap. I believe Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone. I believe there ought to be a constitutional amendment outlawing Astroturf and the designated hitter. I believe in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days."
Hm...so it should come as no surprise by now that I decided to figure out what it is I believed in.
Here goes...
I believe a glass of wine everyday is not only good for the body, but good for the soul. I believe people are generally good at heart, they just stray. I believe in spanking children, second chances, and learning from your mistakes. I sometimes believe Jeanie C. Riley was talking about Pearl when she sang "Harper Valley PTA." I believe competitive Rock, Paper, Scissors tournaments are ridiculous and a cup of hot tea with a shot of whiskey will take care of the sniffles for you. I believe no matter how hard you try, your cooking will never taste as good as your mom's. I believe in mental health days. I believe in love. I believe everyone likes flowers, including men, but the best gifts aren't ones you buy. I believe chivalry is alive, somewhere. And I believe in kisses all over, whispering sweet nothings in your ear, and falling asleep in your lover's arms.
A bit longer, and I could list more, but I will decline. Boring you to death with my beliefs is not sometime I believe in. Haha.
I am in a lot of pain right now, so I am going to take some Ibuprofen and sleep. Good Night.
"Well, I believe in the soul, the c***, the p****, the small of a woman's back, the hanging curve ball, high fiber, good scotch, that the novels of Susan Sontag are self-indulgent, overrated crap. I believe Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone. I believe there ought to be a constitutional amendment outlawing Astroturf and the designated hitter. I believe in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days."
Hm...so it should come as no surprise by now that I decided to figure out what it is I believed in.
Here goes...
I believe a glass of wine everyday is not only good for the body, but good for the soul. I believe people are generally good at heart, they just stray. I believe in spanking children, second chances, and learning from your mistakes. I sometimes believe Jeanie C. Riley was talking about Pearl when she sang "Harper Valley PTA." I believe competitive Rock, Paper, Scissors tournaments are ridiculous and a cup of hot tea with a shot of whiskey will take care of the sniffles for you. I believe no matter how hard you try, your cooking will never taste as good as your mom's. I believe in mental health days. I believe in love. I believe everyone likes flowers, including men, but the best gifts aren't ones you buy. I believe chivalry is alive, somewhere. And I believe in kisses all over, whispering sweet nothings in your ear, and falling asleep in your lover's arms.
A bit longer, and I could list more, but I will decline. Boring you to death with my beliefs is not sometime I believe in. Haha.
I am in a lot of pain right now, so I am going to take some Ibuprofen and sleep. Good Night.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Mmm...cake.
Orange cake at that. I love ladies who bring sweets to work. We had the 4-H group in today at work, and I had to give a speech about the Beef Council. They gave me this nice polo shirt for it too. That was nice.
So, I'm really excited about this new energy drink thats available. Efusjon. I just tried it for the first time last night. I like what it has in it, none of that Taurine or Ginseng. It has Acai Berry concentrate, which many GNC stores will sell as an antioxidant or something to flush your system. And there is still a bunch of research going on about the acai berry, but apparently it has a lot of antitoxins and great qualities that could good for you. Also has a lot of Vitamins and Minerals. It's all-natural and I want to try more of it. The one I tried last night had caffeine in it, not a good idea to drink one of these before bed. They didn't make me jittery, they just kept me awake. I felt like I was tired, but I couldn't sleep. My mind was still going. So, it doesn't give you that feeling like Red Bull of Monster does.
Still figuring out the new camera and phone. I like what I'm finding out though. They both have a lot of great features, and they are really easy to use, once you figure out what the features are.
Got until Friday at work. It's bittersweet. I like working in this office, but I also am eager to see those up in Starkville. I'll see my work friends a good bit though. I'll come visit. Other than that, today hasn't been a very enlightening day. Nothing really to think about, nothing I really have on my mind. Other than whether I should go to Hancock Fabrics or Hobby Lobby for the fabric I need. Either way, it is going to be a pain because of rush hour at 5. Well, crap.
So, I'm really excited about this new energy drink thats available. Efusjon. I just tried it for the first time last night. I like what it has in it, none of that Taurine or Ginseng. It has Acai Berry concentrate, which many GNC stores will sell as an antioxidant or something to flush your system. And there is still a bunch of research going on about the acai berry, but apparently it has a lot of antitoxins and great qualities that could good for you. Also has a lot of Vitamins and Minerals. It's all-natural and I want to try more of it. The one I tried last night had caffeine in it, not a good idea to drink one of these before bed. They didn't make me jittery, they just kept me awake. I felt like I was tired, but I couldn't sleep. My mind was still going. So, it doesn't give you that feeling like Red Bull of Monster does.
Still figuring out the new camera and phone. I like what I'm finding out though. They both have a lot of great features, and they are really easy to use, once you figure out what the features are.
Got until Friday at work. It's bittersweet. I like working in this office, but I also am eager to see those up in Starkville. I'll see my work friends a good bit though. I'll come visit. Other than that, today hasn't been a very enlightening day. Nothing really to think about, nothing I really have on my mind. Other than whether I should go to Hancock Fabrics or Hobby Lobby for the fabric I need. Either way, it is going to be a pain because of rush hour at 5. Well, crap.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
You Stay Classy
I'm glad I chose the radio station I did on Pandora this morning. I made my Frank Sinatra radio, and I love the artists and music that is coming out of it today. It's mellow but got a nice beat to it. Some of the artists heard on this station are Frank (of course), Dean Martin, Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holiday, Tony Bennett, and Harry Connick Jr. I liked the songs so much, I am currently writing a list of "Songs to Download" so I can put them on my mp3 player.
I love the swing and jazz sounds from the music, but their voices. Their voices are great. Frank Sinatra and Harry Connick Jr has such great smooth, rich voices that relax you and make you melt. Or at least me anyway. And what they sing about, their lyrics, are so nice. Most are love songs, but they are simple. Deep, emotional love songs that you could just lay, holding your significant other with. Songs you can dance to, songs that make falling in love sound so great.
Too bad men these days aren't like that. Granted, Frank Sinatra had a troubled life, but the way he sings, you would have never guessed. More men should act like men Sinatra sings about, if that makes sense. Boys I should say. I shouldn't lump all men together. But, either way, do you really see guys sing or talk or even romance women like that anymore. Sounds cheesy, and it very well may be for some, but to me, it's so sweet.
Just think about these lyrics from "Embraceable You"
Embrace me, my sweet embraceable you
Embrace me, my silk-and-lace-able you
Im in love with you, I am and verily so
But youre much too shy, unnecessarily so
I love all the many charms about you
Above all, I want my arms about you
Would a guy really say things like that? Simple, sweet, cute, but oh-so charming? Psh...I've never heard those things, and I will to venture to say many ladies haven't either.
My cousin did something really sweet for his wife. He got a man to come and serenade his wife on their anniversary, very sweet, nice songs. That says many things about him. For one, he's creative. If you can't sing, get a guy who can! (Sorry Dennis, no offense) He put time and thought into a gift, when he could have just given her a necklace or fragrance set (because we all love to be told to take a bath, don't we?) Anyway, just one example of a creative, sweet, romantic way to show how much you care and love someone. Kudos cousin!
My point is, I'd personally like to meet a guy that would do those things. Not to criticize any other guys out there, if it works for you and your lady, hey, keep doing what it is you do.
For me? I want something different. Someone different.
I love the swing and jazz sounds from the music, but their voices. Their voices are great. Frank Sinatra and Harry Connick Jr has such great smooth, rich voices that relax you and make you melt. Or at least me anyway. And what they sing about, their lyrics, are so nice. Most are love songs, but they are simple. Deep, emotional love songs that you could just lay, holding your significant other with. Songs you can dance to, songs that make falling in love sound so great.
Too bad men these days aren't like that. Granted, Frank Sinatra had a troubled life, but the way he sings, you would have never guessed. More men should act like men Sinatra sings about, if that makes sense. Boys I should say. I shouldn't lump all men together. But, either way, do you really see guys sing or talk or even romance women like that anymore. Sounds cheesy, and it very well may be for some, but to me, it's so sweet.
Just think about these lyrics from "Embraceable You"
Embrace me, my sweet embraceable you
Embrace me, my silk-and-lace-able you
Im in love with you, I am and verily so
But youre much too shy, unnecessarily so
I love all the many charms about you
Above all, I want my arms about you
Would a guy really say things like that? Simple, sweet, cute, but oh-so charming? Psh...I've never heard those things, and I will to venture to say many ladies haven't either.
My cousin did something really sweet for his wife. He got a man to come and serenade his wife on their anniversary, very sweet, nice songs. That says many things about him. For one, he's creative. If you can't sing, get a guy who can! (Sorry Dennis, no offense) He put time and thought into a gift, when he could have just given her a necklace or fragrance set (because we all love to be told to take a bath, don't we?) Anyway, just one example of a creative, sweet, romantic way to show how much you care and love someone. Kudos cousin!
My point is, I'd personally like to meet a guy that would do those things. Not to criticize any other guys out there, if it works for you and your lady, hey, keep doing what it is you do.
For me? I want something different. Someone different.
Gadgets and Stuff
So, in addition to my new camera, I bought a new phone last night. It is the super cool new EnV3 from LG. I got a cover for it so I can keep it for a while. Mine is maroon; hell yes I got it in Maroon. I AM a MS State student. Anyway, I'm going to take time out today to figure out how to work all of these things. Hopefully, my boss will show me how to get the best use out of my new camera. He knows a lot about cameras and has plenty of them. He buys the super expensive SLR Professional cameras. Ones that cost more than a luxury car. Yeah, and for some reason, he entrusted me with using that camera once. Needless to say, I was nervous.
Beginning to pack and get all my stuff together for the big move on Sunday. I'm always excited for a move. It's like you get to redecorate all over again. And, I am in a new building. That is exciting as well. Not that I didn't love Sessums, but Hull Hall will be a great experience for me. Plus, it is in the middle of campus, so short walks to class.
So, in other news, MS State RB Anthony Dixon was arrested on DUI charges. Of course, one of our better players has to go and do something stupid before the season even starts. But, I don't think it would be MS State football if we didn't have one of our players get in trouble. Anywho, Mullen still hasn't figured on a disciplinary action, so I guess we shall see how our season will start off.
Off to another uneventful day, hopefully this one will go by a lot faster though. It is about to storm it looks like, and I didn't bring an umbrella. Just my luck.
Monday, July 20, 2009
What? Scared? No Way
Ok, maybe a lot. Now that Sunday is getting closer, excitement is building, but so is a little fear. I'm scared to let someone in, let him get to know me. I guess I'll use a shooting analogy for how I feel. It's like pulling the trigger with your eyes closed. You aim though, you know what you want to say, and you know what you're going to tell him. But you pull not knowing what's going to happen, and hope you hit your target, you hope he likes what you have to say and that he likes you. But, you could be way off.
And it isn't a big deal, is it? It's a date. We've gotten the basics out of the way. I'm not scared about that; on a facebook profile I'm pretty normal. But it's the deeper things you get scared about. Or you are afraid said person won't like.
I don't have these creepy skeletons in my closet, I mean I've made a few mistakes, but I don't have anything super wild to reveal about myself. But I do know I have my fair share of problems, as with anyone.
Case in point of where My Carfax would come in handy.
Just thought I'd write down what's on my mind right now.
And it isn't a big deal, is it? It's a date. We've gotten the basics out of the way. I'm not scared about that; on a facebook profile I'm pretty normal. But it's the deeper things you get scared about. Or you are afraid said person won't like.
I don't have these creepy skeletons in my closet, I mean I've made a few mistakes, but I don't have anything super wild to reveal about myself. But I do know I have my fair share of problems, as with anyone.
Case in point of where My Carfax would come in handy.
Just thought I'd write down what's on my mind right now.
Manic Monday...no, not really
It is a rather uneventful Monday morning as it were. I would like something to do, but this is my last week, so I don't guess they will have a whole lot for me to do. So far, I have proofed an article for the Cattle Business magazine, and read some articles and such.
Oh, I bought a new camera, a 12.1 MP Canon Powershot. It is amazing. It shoots HD videos with pretty decent sound quality. Great pictures, too. I won't tell you how much it costs because, honestly, I would rather not think about it. Anyway, I bought it just in time for RA Training. I hope it will be around for a while so I can take and keep great pictures. I have a 1 GB SD card for it. Not going to be nearly enough, I know. So, I'm looking for an inexpensive SD card with the most GB I can get for the money. I want to start shooting video. Pictures are great, but I like watching videos and recording things better. You get the whole story and not just a single moment. I am going to take good care of this one, it cost too much not to.
And be careful what you ask for. I started this post about an hour ago. Just got back to it because I was carrying boxes from the back to my office. Heavy boxes. So, my Monday just got a little more busy. Ready for lunch already though. I brought something, but I think I might have to add to it, I am starving!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Home Sweet Home
Home at last. I made it back to the house in Pearl, barely. I got to my gate in Denver right as they were boarding. I didn't even have my boarding pass at the time. I had to wait in line to get my boarding pass and then get on the plane. I was about 15 minutes late getting home, but at least I got here.
So, Saturday was so much fun! I got to see a lot of family, went shopping a little, ate good food, and went to the shooting range with my cousin. I love going to the shooting range. We shot his new AR 15 that he bought as well as a .22 handgun and his Ed Brown Custom .45. Now, that .45 is a mean sucker! It would do some damage, and it had a wicked kick, too. I like handling the .22 best. It's light, not too bad to handle, and it's small. I shot pretty well too, just around the center. My cousin says I'm a good shot, so I'll take his word for it. He's been shooting a lot longer than I have.
We went over my cousin's house and got to see baby Eavane. She is adorable! She did this cute thing when I was on the computer. I was watching a video and it had music to it, so she wanted in my lap. I let her up and she started boucing to the music, laughing and cooing. It was so cute. When the video was over, I put her down, but she cried for me to pick her up again. So, I picked her up, and she yawned, and laid her head on my shoulder. It was the most heart-warming thing ever. The fact that a baby is so comfortable in your arms and is so soothed by you, they can practically fall asleep is something else. I am in no rush to become a parent, but when I do, I'll know not to take those moments for granted.
Well, one more week of work left, and then back to Starkville for RA Training. I am thoroughly excited! Meeting new RAs, getting in touch with old ones. Meeting new RDs too! Can't wait!
But, I'm mostly enthusiastic about seeing just one person really.....
So, Saturday was so much fun! I got to see a lot of family, went shopping a little, ate good food, and went to the shooting range with my cousin. I love going to the shooting range. We shot his new AR 15 that he bought as well as a .22 handgun and his Ed Brown Custom .45. Now, that .45 is a mean sucker! It would do some damage, and it had a wicked kick, too. I like handling the .22 best. It's light, not too bad to handle, and it's small. I shot pretty well too, just around the center. My cousin says I'm a good shot, so I'll take his word for it. He's been shooting a lot longer than I have.
We went over my cousin's house and got to see baby Eavane. She is adorable! She did this cute thing when I was on the computer. I was watching a video and it had music to it, so she wanted in my lap. I let her up and she started boucing to the music, laughing and cooing. It was so cute. When the video was over, I put her down, but she cried for me to pick her up again. So, I picked her up, and she yawned, and laid her head on my shoulder. It was the most heart-warming thing ever. The fact that a baby is so comfortable in your arms and is so soothed by you, they can practically fall asleep is something else. I am in no rush to become a parent, but when I do, I'll know not to take those moments for granted.
Well, one more week of work left, and then back to Starkville for RA Training. I am thoroughly excited! Meeting new RAs, getting in touch with old ones. Meeting new RDs too! Can't wait!
But, I'm mostly enthusiastic about seeing just one person really.....
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Beautiful Country
I'm in Pueblo! My uncle Jake and his wife Dee came and picked me up in Denver and brought me down. It was really nice to see them. I had the pleasure of driving down to Pueblo while the sun was setting. The sun set over those mountains and it was beautiful! I could definitely live here in the summertime. Winter...not so much. I'm not a big snow person. Too cold for me.
I am staying with my Aunt Juanita, she is so nice. I spent the morning sharing old stories and chatting over breakfast. I like that. Just relaxing and talking. Just got ready, we are about to go into town and do a little shopping. Then we are going to visit my cousin Dennis and his family. They have an 18 month old girl named Eavane. I like that name for a girl.
Other family coming over to visit later on tonight. I just have today to spend with them. My flight leaves out bright and early tomorrow morning, then I am home around 2:30. It will be nice to get back. I know I will be exhausted though. Running on a few hours of sleep each night is getting a little old.
I am not looking forward to the week ahead. It is my last week of work, and then I head back to Starkville. I am excited to get back to Starkville, however, I know I will miss working. I will miss that nice paycheck too. But that is besides the point. I have a lot to accomplish this week.
I will finish my sister's grad present, pack for State, clean out my car, go on a last minute shopping for some necessities, try to get a new phone, try to see if I can budget in a last minute splurge item, like a camera/camcorder. I know. I don't need it, but I want one.
Posts to come later!
I am staying with my Aunt Juanita, she is so nice. I spent the morning sharing old stories and chatting over breakfast. I like that. Just relaxing and talking. Just got ready, we are about to go into town and do a little shopping. Then we are going to visit my cousin Dennis and his family. They have an 18 month old girl named Eavane. I like that name for a girl.
Other family coming over to visit later on tonight. I just have today to spend with them. My flight leaves out bright and early tomorrow morning, then I am home around 2:30. It will be nice to get back. I know I will be exhausted though. Running on a few hours of sleep each night is getting a little old.
I am not looking forward to the week ahead. It is my last week of work, and then I head back to Starkville. I am excited to get back to Starkville, however, I know I will miss working. I will miss that nice paycheck too. But that is besides the point. I have a lot to accomplish this week.
I will finish my sister's grad present, pack for State, clean out my car, go on a last minute shopping for some necessities, try to get a new phone, try to see if I can budget in a last minute splurge item, like a camera/camcorder. I know. I don't need it, but I want one.
Posts to come later!
Friday, July 17, 2009
Morning.
So, I slept like the dead last night! I had gotten ill last night, I think from eating too much, and I just was exhausted. It felt nice to get a full nights rest though. I feel better.
Anyway, last day of the conference, but not the last day in CO. My Uncle Jake is picking me up around 6 tonight to take me to Pueblo, CO to see family. I am thoroughly excited.
I have meetings all day, but I think I will get the most out of these meetings because they deal with promotion and research in various topics, including nutrition and culinary arts. So, that will be exciting.
I won something at the silent auction they had. I only bid 12 dollars, but I got too pepper grinders out of the deal. I like little doodads like that.
Today isn't very interesting, I might have more as the day moves along. It's still early yet.
P.S. Can't wait till July 26th! A little over a week left, I feel like this could be the longest week ever! haha.
Anyway, last day of the conference, but not the last day in CO. My Uncle Jake is picking me up around 6 tonight to take me to Pueblo, CO to see family. I am thoroughly excited.
I have meetings all day, but I think I will get the most out of these meetings because they deal with promotion and research in various topics, including nutrition and culinary arts. So, that will be exciting.
I won something at the silent auction they had. I only bid 12 dollars, but I got too pepper grinders out of the deal. I like little doodads like that.
Today isn't very interesting, I might have more as the day moves along. It's still early yet.
P.S. Can't wait till July 26th! A little over a week left, I feel like this could be the longest week ever! haha.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Gentlemen....
I love gentlemen, they are so nice. When a man rushes to catch the door for a lady, that is chivalry.
Why is it so dead? Not saying I can't hold the door for myself, but a guy that respects a lady enough to hold the door, pull out her chair, stand up at the table when she stands, etc...is a gentleman in my book. And it's like second nature to some of them. It makes me smile.
Too bad there aren't many younger guys that usually do that. I'm not saying I want a guy to do all these things all of the time, I am not that type of girl. But, I can appreciate it when he does do it.
Maybe I'm old-fashioned or traditional, but it's nice when that happens to you.
Why is it so dead? Not saying I can't hold the door for myself, but a guy that respects a lady enough to hold the door, pull out her chair, stand up at the table when she stands, etc...is a gentleman in my book. And it's like second nature to some of them. It makes me smile.
Too bad there aren't many younger guys that usually do that. I'm not saying I want a guy to do all these things all of the time, I am not that type of girl. But, I can appreciate it when he does do it.
Maybe I'm old-fashioned or traditional, but it's nice when that happens to you.
Culinary Adventure.
When I ask for adventure, I get it. I went to Rodizio's Grill last night in Denver. It was a Brazilian restaurant and it was amazing! You pay one fee and you get basically all you can eat, but instead of it being like a buffet, you get an hourglass looking trinket with one end green and one end red. When the green side is up, these servers bring you different types of meat on large skewers and they keep bringing it to you until you flip the trinket to red, meaning stop. Well, the meats are definitely different. I had elk, buffalo sausage, sirloin steak, chicken hearts, lamb, turkey wrapped in bacon, and pork tenderloin.
Did you catch that? I ATE CHICKEN HEARTS! Omg, it was good too. Different texture though, but it tasted like dark meat chicken, no lie.
The one culinary dish I did not like were the quail eggs. Gross. I am not a big egg person to begin with but these are just awful. But at least I tried it. They have a salad bar that isn't like any salad bar you've seen. Different salads and side items. Then I got a huge Brazilian chocolate cake for dessert!
The appetizers are polenta cakes and fried cinnamon bananas. It was delicious and I would definitely recommend it for the daring and experimental.
Big day today, lots of meetings and lots of mingling, shaking hands and what not. I like the people I am meeting up here though. They are extremely nice and great to talk to.
Oh, PETA is supposed to show up today, that should be a sight to see. I wonder what fanatics they are going to try today.
Oh, if you get the chance to come to Denver, do it! Go downtown and explore the 16th Street Mall and seeall of the great architecture and atmosphere.
Did you catch that? I ATE CHICKEN HEARTS! Omg, it was good too. Different texture though, but it tasted like dark meat chicken, no lie.
The one culinary dish I did not like were the quail eggs. Gross. I am not a big egg person to begin with but these are just awful. But at least I tried it. They have a salad bar that isn't like any salad bar you've seen. Different salads and side items. Then I got a huge Brazilian chocolate cake for dessert!
The appetizers are polenta cakes and fried cinnamon bananas. It was delicious and I would definitely recommend it for the daring and experimental.
Big day today, lots of meetings and lots of mingling, shaking hands and what not. I like the people I am meeting up here though. They are extremely nice and great to talk to.
Oh, PETA is supposed to show up today, that should be a sight to see. I wonder what fanatics they are going to try today.
Oh, if you get the chance to come to Denver, do it! Go downtown and explore the 16th Street Mall and seeall of the great architecture and atmosphere.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop
So, here I am in Denver. I am having a lot of fun so far. I completed the Masters of Beef Advocacy program and had commencement yesterday. It lasted all day and went really well. I am meeting a lot of people from all over the country. It is nice to meet these people. Ms. Nancy and I went to dinner and I ate buffalo. Something different, but I liked it.
Then the American National CattleWomen had an Ice Cream Social last night. That went well. It was nice to meet cattlewomen from Florida and Georgia and all over.
They also had a Fun Run/Walk this morning before Breakfast.
It is nice to see so many women getting involved in the cattle industry.
Today starts the actual NCBA Summer Conference. Sammy, my boss, is supposed to be here any moment. I haven't been playing hookie by any means, but I get nervous when he is around. He is a very nice guy, but is very intimidating. I hate screwing up around him.
Anyway, I don't really have many meetings to go to today, so I am looking for something to do. As many times as I've come to Denver, I have never come downtown and looked around. I think I will try and do that a little bit today. And maybe some shopping. Maybe. Haha
So, to keep things a little bit more private, we will just refer to the following person as "New Guy." Lame, I know, but I want to keep his identity hidden for now. I don't want gossip and such to go around and people who know me to start talking; assuming things.
Anyway, he is amazing! He is super sweet and sends me messages just about eveyday telling me he hopes I have a good day and that he misses me. I know! It's so sweet to hear those from someone you haven't really ever hung out with. I went to eat with him twice this whole summer and we only knew of each other before that.
It's so weird to have this happen. Like, is this guy for real? You only see guys like this in movies, or fairy tales your mom told you when you were little.
Ok, I consider myself an optimist. Always seeing the good in people and most situations. However, Mom always said that if something seemed too good to be true, it usually is. So, my dilemma is that I can't find a thing wrong with him. He's nice, sweet, polite, funny, very good looking, athletic, articulate, smart, and social.
I feel great hearing from him. I can't wait to see him. We have a date when I see him again. Our summer jobs have kept us from going out and seeing each other, fyi.
But, he calls me, texts me, facebook messages me, etc... I can't seem to stop thinking about him. I feel like a little girl with a huge crush. Haha.
What I wonder is why me, and why now? He has met me, seen me, goes to school with me, but just now decides to talk to me and get to know me. I'm not complaining at all, but why me. He could really have his pick of just about any girl on campus or with him. Girls that are more athletic, prettier, and probably less of a mess than I can be.
I know who am, the person I am. And for once in a long time, I'm worried I'll screw things up and my thoughts will get in the way. I tend to overthink situations (which could explain this long post), but I want to take it slow with this guy. This is the kind of guy you take it easy with, fall for him long and slow. Enjoy every minute of it.
I know I have a lot to offer someone. I have an intense amount of love to give to the right person. I just haven't been on a date in a while, a long while, and I want to make sure I am making good decisions now. I want to make sure that if I fall for someone, he'll be there to catch me. I don't have a lot of trust right now, and maybe that is why I am looking for a fault in this guy, but I'm trying to convince myself to stop thinking and just enjoy it. Just see where it goes. I won't be anything but myself though. All of myself. And hope someone, maybe him, will appreciate it and be able to be happy to be with me. All of me. When I get angry, sad, happy, excited, upset, stressed out, irritated, etc.
And had you asked me a couple months ago, I would have told you that person was Stephen. But now that him and I are no longer together, I realize that I don't think Stephen was that person. He loved when I was happy and laughed at his jokes. But he didn't care to hear about my job, which I loved. He hated when I cried. Not because I was sad, just because it made him uncomfortable. This isn't a bashing session on Stephen, but I know that I wasn't perfect for him either. I couldn't take his sense of humor sometimes. I probably could lighten up a bit, but I didn't. There were beliefs and views we both stood by that neither of us wanted to let go of. And that is fine, and I am sorry I hurt him. It still hurts me sometimes too, but if he has moved on, which he has told me he has, then I don't see a future with him anymore. I was willing to leave it open, because I did love him. I do still care for him intensely, but I can't sit and linger over what he's doing, if he thinks about me, etc. Got to start moving on with my life.
Trying to get back on track with myself. Trying to figure out what it is that I want. Trying to be independent and find myself, my interests. I've been focused on someone else's interests for a long time now, and it is hard for me to start doing things solely for me. Like, I want to start working out, but confused where to start. I want to join a dance class, or go out to the shooting range. I've made a mental list of things I want to do. But I am a little nervous to start these things.
#1: Dance: Join a ballroom dance class.
#2: Shooting: My cousin took me to a shooting range, and I did pretty well. I'd like to try it again.
#3: Find a fitness program that is fun!
#4: Get motivated! I need to find what motivates me. That is really a big concern for me. There is a lot I want to try and do, but few things I have a real great pssion for (at least when it comes to hobbies and activities). I am passionate about nutrition, passionate about cooking, passionate about school, things like that, but if cooking were a hobby, I would have food for an eternity (and I just don't have that kind of money to be spending on groceries).
Please, post your thoughts on things you think I should try. I need ideas. I want adventure. I want excitement!
Later Days!
Then the American National CattleWomen had an Ice Cream Social last night. That went well. It was nice to meet cattlewomen from Florida and Georgia and all over.
They also had a Fun Run/Walk this morning before Breakfast.
It is nice to see so many women getting involved in the cattle industry.
Today starts the actual NCBA Summer Conference. Sammy, my boss, is supposed to be here any moment. I haven't been playing hookie by any means, but I get nervous when he is around. He is a very nice guy, but is very intimidating. I hate screwing up around him.
Anyway, I don't really have many meetings to go to today, so I am looking for something to do. As many times as I've come to Denver, I have never come downtown and looked around. I think I will try and do that a little bit today. And maybe some shopping. Maybe. Haha
So, to keep things a little bit more private, we will just refer to the following person as "New Guy." Lame, I know, but I want to keep his identity hidden for now. I don't want gossip and such to go around and people who know me to start talking; assuming things.
Anyway, he is amazing! He is super sweet and sends me messages just about eveyday telling me he hopes I have a good day and that he misses me. I know! It's so sweet to hear those from someone you haven't really ever hung out with. I went to eat with him twice this whole summer and we only knew of each other before that.
It's so weird to have this happen. Like, is this guy for real? You only see guys like this in movies, or fairy tales your mom told you when you were little.
Ok, I consider myself an optimist. Always seeing the good in people and most situations. However, Mom always said that if something seemed too good to be true, it usually is. So, my dilemma is that I can't find a thing wrong with him. He's nice, sweet, polite, funny, very good looking, athletic, articulate, smart, and social.
I feel great hearing from him. I can't wait to see him. We have a date when I see him again. Our summer jobs have kept us from going out and seeing each other, fyi.
But, he calls me, texts me, facebook messages me, etc... I can't seem to stop thinking about him. I feel like a little girl with a huge crush. Haha.
What I wonder is why me, and why now? He has met me, seen me, goes to school with me, but just now decides to talk to me and get to know me. I'm not complaining at all, but why me. He could really have his pick of just about any girl on campus or with him. Girls that are more athletic, prettier, and probably less of a mess than I can be.
I know who am, the person I am. And for once in a long time, I'm worried I'll screw things up and my thoughts will get in the way. I tend to overthink situations (which could explain this long post), but I want to take it slow with this guy. This is the kind of guy you take it easy with, fall for him long and slow. Enjoy every minute of it.
I know I have a lot to offer someone. I have an intense amount of love to give to the right person. I just haven't been on a date in a while, a long while, and I want to make sure I am making good decisions now. I want to make sure that if I fall for someone, he'll be there to catch me. I don't have a lot of trust right now, and maybe that is why I am looking for a fault in this guy, but I'm trying to convince myself to stop thinking and just enjoy it. Just see where it goes. I won't be anything but myself though. All of myself. And hope someone, maybe him, will appreciate it and be able to be happy to be with me. All of me. When I get angry, sad, happy, excited, upset, stressed out, irritated, etc.
And had you asked me a couple months ago, I would have told you that person was Stephen. But now that him and I are no longer together, I realize that I don't think Stephen was that person. He loved when I was happy and laughed at his jokes. But he didn't care to hear about my job, which I loved. He hated when I cried. Not because I was sad, just because it made him uncomfortable. This isn't a bashing session on Stephen, but I know that I wasn't perfect for him either. I couldn't take his sense of humor sometimes. I probably could lighten up a bit, but I didn't. There were beliefs and views we both stood by that neither of us wanted to let go of. And that is fine, and I am sorry I hurt him. It still hurts me sometimes too, but if he has moved on, which he has told me he has, then I don't see a future with him anymore. I was willing to leave it open, because I did love him. I do still care for him intensely, but I can't sit and linger over what he's doing, if he thinks about me, etc. Got to start moving on with my life.
Trying to get back on track with myself. Trying to figure out what it is that I want. Trying to be independent and find myself, my interests. I've been focused on someone else's interests for a long time now, and it is hard for me to start doing things solely for me. Like, I want to start working out, but confused where to start. I want to join a dance class, or go out to the shooting range. I've made a mental list of things I want to do. But I am a little nervous to start these things.
#1: Dance: Join a ballroom dance class.
#2: Shooting: My cousin took me to a shooting range, and I did pretty well. I'd like to try it again.
#3: Find a fitness program that is fun!
#4: Get motivated! I need to find what motivates me. That is really a big concern for me. There is a lot I want to try and do, but few things I have a real great pssion for (at least when it comes to hobbies and activities). I am passionate about nutrition, passionate about cooking, passionate about school, things like that, but if cooking were a hobby, I would have food for an eternity (and I just don't have that kind of money to be spending on groceries).
Please, post your thoughts on things you think I should try. I need ideas. I want adventure. I want excitement!
Later Days!
Monday, July 13, 2009
I'm Back! Not that anyone really reads this thing.
So, I am back to blogging again. Haven't in a while. I don't know why, I just have a lot of profiles and pages I keep up with. But it is nice to have this on here to scribble my thoughts. So, briefly, to catch you up, here is an update:
Relationship Status: Single. For about a month now. Moving on with my life, still need to pick up a few things from his place. Still hurts even though I am the one who ended it.
Work Status: Work for the MS Beef Council this summer, has been going well. 2 weeks left. Go to Denver today for a week, then back at the office for another week. Then RA Training!
Bank Status: Dwindling...
Personal Stuff: Going on my "find-myself/make-positive-changes/be-independent" journey. So far, is going well. Made some mistakes, but I picked myself up and moved on. Right now, I am just finishing up with the job and excited for RA Training.
Goals for Training: Make good friends with the hall staff and others. Take it one day at a time. Get organized (but that seems to be a goal that I fall short of a lot). Learn something new. Be a good mentor to residents and new RAs if need be.
So, I will keep posting on here as need be. Probably hear a lot about my Denver trip and Training.
Relationship Status: Single. For about a month now. Moving on with my life, still need to pick up a few things from his place. Still hurts even though I am the one who ended it.
Work Status: Work for the MS Beef Council this summer, has been going well. 2 weeks left. Go to Denver today for a week, then back at the office for another week. Then RA Training!
Bank Status: Dwindling...
Personal Stuff: Going on my "find-myself/make-positive-changes/be-independent" journey. So far, is going well. Made some mistakes, but I picked myself up and moved on. Right now, I am just finishing up with the job and excited for RA Training.
Goals for Training: Make good friends with the hall staff and others. Take it one day at a time. Get organized (but that seems to be a goal that I fall short of a lot). Learn something new. Be a good mentor to residents and new RAs if need be.
So, I will keep posting on here as need be. Probably hear a lot about my Denver trip and Training.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Honky Tonk
So, I was in Music App today. Lame class, but now we are getting into American Roots music (blues, jazz, country, bluegrass, etc...) Well, I am a closet country fan. Not really closet about it, I will go down the road blaring country music, but when others are around, I tend to stick to alternative and pop.
Nevertheless, it was quite interesting learning about where country music came from. Some of these people that pioneered country and folk music, I had never heard of.
Leadbelly, Bill Monroe, Earl Stubbs. I mean these guys were in the Great Depression era. They influenced who we listen to now (or our parents listen to) like Merle Haggard, Willie Nelson, and Hank Willams Jr.
I mean I had heard of a few people back in the day: Woody Guthrie, Hank Williams, and the folk collector John Lomax. John Lomax really introduced America to country music. (he collected folk music around the country for the Library of Congress).
He also helped a lot of these people make a name for themselves. Country music owes everything to Lomax.
Ok, so I know you are thinking that this is lame and nobody cares about country music, but music, in general, interests me. Where it started, who set the standard, why they sang like that...
They were the founders of some of the great styles we hear today.
I don't know, music just really interests me I guess.
I really did wonder what "honky tonk" really meant. It's just another term for a bar to go dancing at. It just sounds so country.
I can't wait until we get to the jazz portion of American music. I love jazz music. I think I'm biased because I play(ed) the saxophone, doesn't matter. Jazz music still holds a great place in American history.
So, speaking of music, I was watching an Eric Clapton benefit concert. Him and a bunch of other bands played. Well, Beck was there. And no doubt dude can wail on the guitar, but his bassist! She looked my age and just ripping on that bass. I wish I had her skills.
Ok, I think that's good for today...
Comments on music are welcome.
Nevertheless, it was quite interesting learning about where country music came from. Some of these people that pioneered country and folk music, I had never heard of.
Leadbelly, Bill Monroe, Earl Stubbs. I mean these guys were in the Great Depression era. They influenced who we listen to now (or our parents listen to) like Merle Haggard, Willie Nelson, and Hank Willams Jr.
I mean I had heard of a few people back in the day: Woody Guthrie, Hank Williams, and the folk collector John Lomax. John Lomax really introduced America to country music. (he collected folk music around the country for the Library of Congress).
He also helped a lot of these people make a name for themselves. Country music owes everything to Lomax.
Ok, so I know you are thinking that this is lame and nobody cares about country music, but music, in general, interests me. Where it started, who set the standard, why they sang like that...
They were the founders of some of the great styles we hear today.
I don't know, music just really interests me I guess.
I really did wonder what "honky tonk" really meant. It's just another term for a bar to go dancing at. It just sounds so country.
I can't wait until we get to the jazz portion of American music. I love jazz music. I think I'm biased because I play(ed) the saxophone, doesn't matter. Jazz music still holds a great place in American history.
So, speaking of music, I was watching an Eric Clapton benefit concert. Him and a bunch of other bands played. Well, Beck was there. And no doubt dude can wail on the guitar, but his bassist! She looked my age and just ripping on that bass. I wish I had her skills.
Ok, I think that's good for today...
Comments on music are welcome.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Last Night in Chatt
So, it's my last night in Chattanooga for Spring Break. Kinda sad, I don't want to go home tomorrow. Staff meeting at 8 tomorrow night too. Boo....
Watching the LSU-UNC game right now. It looks like it could be a good game. I'm mostly not interested hehe
Hot Buy of the Day-cute pair of shoes for $6 at Baker's Shoes. (Originally $80)
Fun moment of the day-Beating Stephen at Rock Band
Got to drive the BMW today. It's Stephen's Mom's car. It is B-E-A-UTIFUL. It's a Z4. I was nervous driving it. For one, it is damn expensive. Secondly, it's his mom's car, I will be sure to be careful driving it. Got to put the top down. I did feel pretty hot in it.
I had Sticky Fingers barbeque yesterday for lunch. OMG, I could be their spokesperson. I love that stuff. I tell you, the ribs are the best. I get mine dry and put the Tennessee Whiskey sauce on it. Yum! Their cole slaw and beans are good too. I mean, I could eat that stuff everyday. Stephen Colbert agrees with me. A painting of him is in the one in downtown Charleston.
Dinner Time...got to go!
Watching the LSU-UNC game right now. It looks like it could be a good game. I'm mostly not interested hehe
Hot Buy of the Day-cute pair of shoes for $6 at Baker's Shoes. (Originally $80)
Fun moment of the day-Beating Stephen at Rock Band
Got to drive the BMW today. It's Stephen's Mom's car. It is B-E-A-UTIFUL. It's a Z4. I was nervous driving it. For one, it is damn expensive. Secondly, it's his mom's car, I will be sure to be careful driving it. Got to put the top down. I did feel pretty hot in it.
I had Sticky Fingers barbeque yesterday for lunch. OMG, I could be their spokesperson. I love that stuff. I tell you, the ribs are the best. I get mine dry and put the Tennessee Whiskey sauce on it. Yum! Their cole slaw and beans are good too. I mean, I could eat that stuff everyday. Stephen Colbert agrees with me. A painting of him is in the one in downtown Charleston.
Dinner Time...got to go!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Chattanooga, TN
So, I've been in Chattanooga for a day now. It's always fun when I come here. Even when I don't really do anything, I still enjoy myself. I think we might go out on the TN River in the week if it gets warm enough.
So, exciting news! I made an A on my Organic Chemistry test! Sweet! I studied hard for that test. I am super-thrilled.
I, however, sacrificed my Physiology test grade. I made an A on the first Physiology test so I figured I could study a little less and focus on Organic Chem. Oh well, I have time to bring it up.
Stephen's father is turning 60 tomorrow, I'm going to bake him a cake. Yellow cake with chocolate frosting. Yum. But I don't know what to get him. Another dilemma.
We are going to watch the game though. Probably go to Buffalo Wild Wings and watch it there. Nothing better than hot wings and sports. Tune in on Thursday for MSU v. Washington 4:55pm!
Go State!
We went over to Palladino's house last night. Played Left 4 Dead. Got to admit, I'm not a fan of zombie-killing games, they just seem so lame. But this one is pretty cool. You play on a team of 4 and instead of the zombies trudging slowly over to attack, they are some fast moving zombies! And they attack in huge packs. Again, I'm not a video game expert, but it was a little different than the ones I usually see. Oh, hint if you play it, don't set off the car alarm. Zombies come out of no where!
Although I am not super crazy about the Twilight series, I am looking forward to getting Twilight on DVD. I liked it. Don't judge me. The series was good.
Nothing interesting going on so far. More to come.
So, exciting news! I made an A on my Organic Chemistry test! Sweet! I studied hard for that test. I am super-thrilled.
I, however, sacrificed my Physiology test grade. I made an A on the first Physiology test so I figured I could study a little less and focus on Organic Chem. Oh well, I have time to bring it up.
Stephen's father is turning 60 tomorrow, I'm going to bake him a cake. Yellow cake with chocolate frosting. Yum. But I don't know what to get him. Another dilemma.
We are going to watch the game though. Probably go to Buffalo Wild Wings and watch it there. Nothing better than hot wings and sports. Tune in on Thursday for MSU v. Washington 4:55pm!
Go State!
We went over to Palladino's house last night. Played Left 4 Dead. Got to admit, I'm not a fan of zombie-killing games, they just seem so lame. But this one is pretty cool. You play on a team of 4 and instead of the zombies trudging slowly over to attack, they are some fast moving zombies! And they attack in huge packs. Again, I'm not a video game expert, but it was a little different than the ones I usually see. Oh, hint if you play it, don't set off the car alarm. Zombies come out of no where!
Although I am not super crazy about the Twilight series, I am looking forward to getting Twilight on DVD. I liked it. Don't judge me. The series was good.
Nothing interesting going on so far. More to come.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Scribble #1
So, here is an introduction to my blog. I'm new to blogging but it seems to be popular and I guess it could be cool. Hate to be a crowd follower, but eh, no harm in it I guess. I have to fiddle with the tools and gadgets on the page, so the content of each blog will probably get more interesting as I figure this out.
So, I'm going to try something different. Instead of going on and on about who I am, what my likes and dislikes are, how many dogs I have, blah blah blah, I am going to let you figure it out. It's a lot more fun that way. It saves those of you who do already know me from reading the garbage you already know. And for those of you who don't know me, get to skip the small talk and proceed to the "juicy stuff." (In quotes because I seriously doubt anything I put up here will be juicy) Nevertheless, no stupid stuff you could really careless about.
So, on to the good stuff.
Spring Break! and I'm in Mexico!
Haha, no really, I'm stuck at home.
But it could be worse. I just got back from New Orleans. Wasn't aware of a St. Joseph's Day Parade on Bourbon Street, but 'twas a pleasant surprise. I got beads (no flashing required) and cute red-white-and-green garters. Not to mention kisses on the cheek from handsome Italian men. I'm going to have to say that St. Joe Day needs to be recognized more. It was hilariously fun.
On to Chattanooga tomorrow with the beaux. Hopefully do a little partying and touristy stuff. If not, oh well. At least I'm not worried about school work.
Speaking of important stuff, AIG really ticked some people off. It is totally understandable. It kind of gets on my nerves too. Why do that with all the money the gov't just handed out? Like they wouldn't find out. Psh. Although I don't understand politics and government as others may, I hope there is a way they can stop the bonuses. They don't deserve it.
Random Thought: Chinese food is awesome!!!!!!
I've had a cold/sinus infection for the past few days and I've been drinking this new tea. Love it! Celestial SleepyTime Tea. Go get some. It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I'm going to get some.
I have to wake up early to drive tomorrow, so I guess I will call it a night (or day whichever time zone you're in).
Hopefully, more interesting scribbles to come. Check back and see.
So, I'm going to try something different. Instead of going on and on about who I am, what my likes and dislikes are, how many dogs I have, blah blah blah, I am going to let you figure it out. It's a lot more fun that way. It saves those of you who do already know me from reading the garbage you already know. And for those of you who don't know me, get to skip the small talk and proceed to the "juicy stuff." (In quotes because I seriously doubt anything I put up here will be juicy) Nevertheless, no stupid stuff you could really careless about.
So, on to the good stuff.
Spring Break! and I'm in Mexico!
Haha, no really, I'm stuck at home.
But it could be worse. I just got back from New Orleans. Wasn't aware of a St. Joseph's Day Parade on Bourbon Street, but 'twas a pleasant surprise. I got beads (no flashing required) and cute red-white-and-green garters. Not to mention kisses on the cheek from handsome Italian men. I'm going to have to say that St. Joe Day needs to be recognized more. It was hilariously fun.
On to Chattanooga tomorrow with the beaux. Hopefully do a little partying and touristy stuff. If not, oh well. At least I'm not worried about school work.
Speaking of important stuff, AIG really ticked some people off. It is totally understandable. It kind of gets on my nerves too. Why do that with all the money the gov't just handed out? Like they wouldn't find out. Psh. Although I don't understand politics and government as others may, I hope there is a way they can stop the bonuses. They don't deserve it.
Random Thought: Chinese food is awesome!!!!!!
I've had a cold/sinus infection for the past few days and I've been drinking this new tea. Love it! Celestial SleepyTime Tea. Go get some. It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I'm going to get some.
I have to wake up early to drive tomorrow, so I guess I will call it a night (or day whichever time zone you're in).
Hopefully, more interesting scribbles to come. Check back and see.
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